Friday, August 4
trust.it aint gonna come easy,honey. - Friday, August 04, 2006
i'm listening to jamie cullum's twentysomething at the moment. boy, i've missed out on really good music for quite a while. yes, kelly seah, the self-proclaimed rocker who has no musical talent or vocal quality whatsoever, is listening to jazz. just listening to jazz makes me think of an old guy moving to the beat.
yar, like him.
so anyway, i'm drifting from the point i'm SUPPOSED to be talking about. yes, it's trust. i've really changed thruout the yrs. i remembered myself being naive, gullible & just plain trusting of people. yes, stupid i know. but oh come on, i knew you were gullible once too, even if it was for that split second. if not, bravo. u're not normal.
the irony of it all.~
i used to trust so willingly & now i find it extremely difficult to trust even the pple who have been nth but true to me all this long. i think i may have disappointed myself ystd. i should have believed & had faith in this friend. instead, i clearly showed the opposite. & yet, he wasn't disheartened at all. he just told me to pray that i meant what he said & that'll do what he said he'd do.
see lah, sometimes have this kinda friend makes me feel so unworthy to be his friend.
it just goes to show i don't have trust in the people i should.-*
-kel